I think this is the place and conditions are best for me at this time. can you imagine how it feels when you are unwell, living alone, deserted. and your BOY friend is not also trying to accompany or entertain you? I did this is the way that God always wants me to feel it? so I'm more aware of how sad my life?
Thank God for this. at least I can feel peace in this day above this suffering, just like my worst birthday. aah please don't remind me about that shattered day.