There is always be coming and

comes a new happiness lasted only a moment, then came prolonged grief. whether it is in the call justice?
or just i'm lack of thankful?

Is this the new trials in my life at the beginning of the age of 21 years?
Is this God's way to becoming me more mature soon?
why should this soon papa go?
is not  papa just promised to attend my graduation later?
is not  papa just plan to get dinner together to discuss my future and my boyfriend?
is not papa just planning to build a house and stay at home until dusk later?
is not papa would be marrying me later?

:(
Dear God, Please give me back my beloved papa as soon as a flash