Dear God,
You had let me feel the loss. and I've learned many things from it.
you are very right in choosing who I love most to me, and i have to let go.
Like i've had heard about, if you love something, you have to ready for losing.

And I can't handle myself for always being seems strong.

Then, one of my lovely-person-list, AB told me about something that i know where the conversation will end. he told me, "Prophet muhammad died at the age of 40 years, uje died at a young age is also 40 years old, not long after that papa also went at the age of 43 years, and the last news of the death of a young habib at the age of 40 years." then silence dominate the atmosphere "..."

Okay, I think the main point is "a kind person will no longer in earth, because god will take care them in heaven". So IF I MAY ASK to the God, can you just let me any longer with my soulmate together in the same dimention in earth later?